CALLS FOR LOVE

I don't know what I want
One voice tells me it is, another outright, it's not!
I try as much to avoid mistakes-cautious
But I end up on the wrong run
Chasing illusions that evaporate off my mind
Are you the one?

Of course you are..
But why does it silhouette 'hurt' in my eyes?
All am hearing are lies
Lies that heal my past wounds and scars
How nice they sound in my ear drums
However, are they going to really last?

Of course they should..
So why do I want it this rush?
Is it going to evade us?
Can we take it slow, but does it deserve this?
I just can't wait for it to hit-off
I'm desperate for love and I fear it's rip-off
Is it going to also leave like the last time?

Of course it will..
Leaving me with bitterness caving in
Empty and desolete
Is it worth the risk?

Of course it isn't!
I did it before and I don't want to repeat it
My heart has had enough;
It has been played with, cut, wounded and burst
And made me cold, numb to trust- to love
Now I just look, and stare at calls for love

DREAMS MONEY CAN'T BUY

She curled up at the corner of her already freezing bedroom floor

Crying all day till it  had made her too weak to even move

She was left with strength enough  to only clusp strongly at her wet scarf

You would think it’s the only thing that she had

But running in her mind

Were the dreaded thoughts of yesterday night

She has had so many flashbacks

And still she can’t figure out why it had to be her

Was the world so cruel to her like this?

Or was misfortune having a hard time keeping up with her pureness?

It couldn’t turn out like this

She cursed so many times the day she was born

She pitied the woman who ever had pride in her

How was she going to react when she hears this…

Would she still have the same regards she placed on her?

And how Daddy secured her as his future

He calls her Daddy’s girl for the soft spot for her

Is this condition going to change that?

She remembers him telling her to take care

And even offered to pick her up later

But she didn’t want that, and now she regrets why

 What about the man who did it to her

Doesn’t guilt ever have enough strength to tear him up?

Would he ever wake up one day and bump into justice’ hands?

She only hoped for it

Where she was right now, nothing could ever make her clean

She oftenly wished she could buy it

But money can’t buy such dreams

LIFE IN A BIT

There's a moment you need,
To make this day worth it,
To realise that whatever you did,
Has made this day what it is,
So don't look down upon your effort...
It might the only thing you got, when all your hope is gone,
If you think you haven't done it today,
Say a prayer before you sleep and wait for tomorrow,
There's a moment you need,
To smile and tell yourself everything is fine,
When all around you seems not to work,
So don't let a time like this fly away...
This maybe all you ever needed to make a new step,
And this life being a rose in the garden,
Pluck it, smell it and pass it to your friends,
For when the battle is finally won,
And victory is all you got in your tight hold,
You live life today for you may miss tomorrow.

TIRED

I must have said it all to you,
I must be running out of what to do to you,
All that...
Was in the hope,in your mind it gets through,
Don't you even see my effort?
What about my all that I gave?yo
Am tired of it all
The joy of thinking about it is now a pain,
It has eaten my hope and corroded my faith,
Even after arousing anger within myself,
It still has sucked the last bit of my only strength,
Leaving me as you did with yourself,
Since my loving made you nervous,
And things are hectic as you are,
To you I've stopped biding...
For am tired of being the accessory.

INCREDIBLE RIDE

I feel the touch of passion down to my last vein
The breath of pleasure right on my chest
I can't pretend anymore that I am resisting
This struddle on my arms overpowering my resistance
Relish overflowing into my heart
I want to swallow the moment but
My self-indulgence into you is on over-ride
In need of more
Since you give and I crave it all
Pleasing and easy like a stream flow
Sweet sounds of your whispers in my earlobes
Get me to the point of no return
For I want it to stay this way my whole life
Set my passion on fire
Burn down my tower of desire
Here we are in this big old empty room
You want me just as much as I want you
let's stop fooling around
Take me baby....kiss me all over and play with my love
Bring out what's been in me for far too long
Baby, you know.... that's all I keep dreaming of
The lower I go, my anticipation builds
Our hearts beat faster bracing for the thrill.
My touch has you moaning begging for more
Your hot passionate kisses;
I simply adore..I feel it, I feel you,
As I crest on high only you can take me,
On this incredible ride
Let me lay you down and get ready to play.
Do you have the energy...?cause I got all day
I'm ready and willing so let's take it slow
And ride in this zone to the last point.

FREEZING

Honey,I remember you reading my love notes
and how you held them on you chest exclaiming "how warm"
Closing you eye balls smiling flashing sighing and
Holding on it so firm like it was gas for your inhale
You made me feel like the luckiest man on earth
And even as am thinking of what I lost
Collecting the broken pieces and putting them in a pot
Trying to fight the cold
Embedded tightly on my heart like a stain coat
Pressing me and making me shiver
Tearing me apart,trying to squeeze me from inwards
Capsizing my world,drowning  my ship
Mutinying my captainship
Leaving me hanging and worn out
Breaking my guard and leaving me with no shield
Blown away my peace and beaten me with wind
On my broken heart you have caused heavy cracks
Big and viscible like a lightning strike
And they cut deep within like a gold mine
You extracted my valuable inner
Only to throw it away denying them your warm finger
When they used to roll down my face
As I held you with passion around your waist
Looking into your eyes and not being able to read lies
Kissing you glossy lips and not being able to test deceive
Your back responding sporadically to spasm of my palm
Feeling your breath on my nostrils
Warmth emanating from your body
And your arm,s gripping tightly around my neck
I gave it my all and will never forget the taste of your sweat
But with all that,you had packaged my heartbreak
Now am loveless,heartless and beaten in my own game.

BETWEEN ME AND DEATH

Right infront of me their is air full of hope
As am walking all alone in this sickening cold
Wondering if you ever miss the times we had
When between me and death was you and I
Days fly faster than I thought they would
while memories cluster like stars around the moon
In a minute,what we had is a ruin
And the blame brought sides that we winningly took
Ironically,we lost us two
Am trying to get you back but you spelt out doom
Don't you remember when between me and death was you and I?
What kind of face do you want me to wear
That that will convince that am taking the blame on my shoulder?
Ready to carry it's weight till my death
as long as you and me are back together again
You don't want to understand
That if I lose you that is a second life that I have made
Meaning  if I start it,I won't have feelings that before I felt
 Killing the real thing and letting me live on a fake
Because you and I were between me and death

Talking to myself

Hold my hand in this tiny dream
Make me smile like it hasn't been
Show me the place where this piece
that is broken I'm going to fix

Tell me the words that I know
Will make the glow in my heart rekindle
Re-write this my moments and even more
So that the memories I have can go

Come and stay in my lonely being
Take my thoughts and make them real
Live my life being a part of me
Speak my inner feelings in all simplicity

See me through this dark tunnel
Be my light in this dim lifeway
Be the star to always brighten
Brighten whenever all I see is darkness

Feel the inner joy that I conceal
In my lonely heart not to let free
Since its the only real thing
I would wish to keep apart from you my miss.

Behind my mask

Behind my mask,there are many sorts of things
The good that make life worth living,the bad that make you wanna quit
I want peace,the peace that embraces those around me
Joy above all things,that shall stick for my surviving
Lost in this globe,trotting gives me rest
And what I say of it,is always 'watch this space'
Pails of gloom poured on my way,for me stumble
In this journey there's no rest,and still I must go
Where's happiness? Anywhere people smiling?
And yet they hurting inside,seething with sadness
Shadows of pomp are long gone,the smell of sweet times is faded
Living in a cloud of pretence,I can't keep on with the storm so I hasten
Put on my mask to hide my grief,and let pain burn me within
And till when I can't hold it no more,hear the chants of peace..
I keep on hiding.
Riding the horse of pretence,behind my mask without any mistake

Haha...Did I?

I laugh at somethings I should have done
Back then I could have held them firm
Atleast give it a deeper though till I felt it hurt
And I was just reluctant
Iam not regretting at being dumb
My brain wasn't programmed to see the details

To see the unseeable passes you made
I would have been the gentleman by then
And things happened so fast than I could say
I would have beaten my chest and yell:
'HEY,Iam the man!'
Iam not saying I blew the chance
My mouth never found the words to tell ya

The words that would have made you mine
I would have blown away the fantasies I later had
I wouldn't kick my self for causing inner mayhem
Talking to myself
And getting the conversation in streamline progress
Iam not saying I was shy
My imagination convinced me that you're mine

And if you were mine,this wouldn't have happened
This paper wouldn't be aware of my escapade
And even still I wish it could come back to today
It still just happened
Iam not saying that is the end
My life is too long I still need to prepare.

What I want

Dear God I know I haven't talked to you lately
And I just hope you are listening
And what am about to bring here
You see I've been on the look out for
A wife to start building my home
But
It seems I hit the wall and now its a rebound
I know if I tell you about
The kinda wife I want
Well,you can get tired before am done
So I decided to tell you what I don't want
I dont want a princess
Those who walk as if stepping on glasses
Or a queen without a crown
That also I dont want
All that with brown skin and glittering eyes
That with silky hair flowing on her back
I dont want that too
Even if u give me a supermodel
Straight from a shoot out for a top magazine
I wönt have her
This is because I won't be able to see beyond
What she offers for my eyes to watch
I know you're wondering what I want Lord
Well...I want a woman who loves me
And she truly means it
That that I will love back
For with this love at heart
I will be having all that 'I want' in her love
And that 'I dont have won't matter'
For love has a way of compesating all that
Give me that and am set to jump
In the life of love_control_all_stuff
Am looking forward to your reply
Yours,son.

What I never thought,please accept

I know you wish I was dead
After all those words that I said
And all through I put you through hell
Without a single thought that again I would beg
Beg you again for your chance
Another moment just the two of us
Those bruises you have still hurt
And am even ashamed to look you in the eye
I messed your life
And that is passed let's start again
Am all that you think I am
Because I never thought again I would beg
Beg you for your time
Every minute that would pass again by
Let me re-do that I failed in that span
When you weep your tears falling on my shoulder
Give me that again  and give your hankie a break
Because right now am aware
I would do without you but not anymore
Am sick and tired of looking for a new love
Because I need to find your love that I lost
So am begging you again
Give me your love and I am waiting to take it
This thirst is soring up my trachea
Give me that feeling of fullfillment again
I hit the wall and bounced back
You can receive me or leave me for death
I believe you will get me
It's you am begging
Bail me out this distress
And if am worthy of your sympathy
Let me comfort you now instead
I feel it now how it is being neglected
Be with me again love
Because its YOU,all that I have.

I start thinking again

The saw moves back and forth,
The show still lingers in my thoughts,
If I let her go I loose a gem,
If I let her stay then things wouldn't be the same,
When I think about it,
At times I smile at what I did,
I know mine is a noble course,
A sincere heart in search of comfort,
When I speak of love,
At times I miss my statements,
Then am filled with fear for dejectment,
If she loves me then,
Thats what I was wishing,
Whether its true or a pretence,
I know life's lessons are full of quizzes,
At times I pass them
And others I fail
Let me fold my fingers..
I hope this sawing will save my day,
And keep me sawing back and forth
To forget my thoughts
Just for a moment
Then start again when the wood is cut into two pieces.

Getting myself

Something that never stops is emotion-flow,
Whether you're high in the air or way downright low,
But when am in need of a shoulder to lean on,
That partner to shout with me in times of joy,
To endure in my red letter days,
And those that leave me saying 'I'll do it again'
Then when am bitter at a failure,
Or full of praise 'coz I've gotten there,
There's this pen I pick up,
And my notebook still on my lap,
Then I pour out my heart to it,
No matter how murky it is they still with me,
They know no joy or pain,
And they don't care for a stake at what I gain,
All along they hold my emotions,
How they come in and how they go,
Whoever I feel they still with me all along,
Or I get this feeling am so depressed,
So to apply deep rest I grab 'em,
And as usual they impress,
At the end of the day I wonder what would have happened,
If I had no notebook and pen,
Because they are ever close to my emotions,
And how  I get 'em in flow,
Give me a pen and I tell you what I feel in a paper,
I know this way is how I get to myself

Brothers and sisters huh?

Emotions inter-mixed with events,
Till now everything is crushing,
When I thought I really had it made...
Oh my...it's when am just starting,
Say the church is a better is a better place,
But still am crying,
Pain is so hard to be melted by my tears,
'The word' ain't just right for my ears,
It seems my help is too far,
Accepting the same is just too much,
When will the world understand?
Get it atleast...I need a piece of mind?
Those souls on the tube are so true,
Evidence enough that nobody cares,
Self...that's what everybody wants,
A bro or siz that's none for their words,
A helping hand turns against them and steals,
A prayer for them is for 'continued suffering'
So that they gain from it,
Venom they spit when they should be helping,
Backstubbing is paramount in their dealings,
But we still adore them,
Unaware of the pain they give us,
Hence they still will deceive us,
And call us their brothers and sisters!

Fantasy,Was it?

My smile is still the same as that I flashed in my school days,
Wry and enchanting especially when walking in the hallway,
Small groups after class discussing or in an argument,
Not about some lesson but somebuddi'es cute girlfriend,
And I had this one who gave me more trouble,
We used to chat on the pavements during games,
Exchanged snaps and naughty love notes,
And there is one I collected my book with it..oops!
That's what I can never forget,
Because on that very day she dumped me,
With no reason behind it,
But my buddies still had me,
And upto now when we meet it's all about...
'men!your girlfriend hasn't come back to you?'
Well,I left her when I left High school,
If I go back I might make her regret that too,
But she made me know not all things are true,
And a fantasy is just the same as Love-in-high-school.

I Denied Justice

I paint grafitti on the street walls to ease my pains,
Biting my lower lip in deep thought of it again,
The sound of the gunshot is still loud banging in my head,
I wonder why I was the one to see that very death,
Someone I didn't know but now am scared,
That bang and his scream are hard to forget,
I was so afraid that day I could scream,
The whole night staring I couldn't sleep or dream,
Then the papers splashed the photos on the frontpage,
And my witness I couldn't give it in,
So up to today am still hurting within,
For denying justice a chance to prevail.

ALL I HAVE

At times when I try to reminisce
Nostalgia,times that I miss
Hastily
Thinking happily
Of the days we chatted night and day
Exchanging hugs,pattings on the head
But misfortune robbed you off me hastily
I hadn't even told you how you mattered to me
When you encouraged me to face life
I remember we used to laugh
At the idea of you being a wife
I now wish you were mine
Before death grabbed you off
And left me with memories of
You and me on the riverside
Picnic eating snacks
Playing hide and seek
Till when its dusk
Its home we heading back
I hope you're happier where you are
For this memories is all I have

THE LAST DANCE

Hey girl,these are words of a part of my world
describing its state whenever you are around
Or even your prescence lingers in my crowded mind
I feel lucky am apart of our great thing
and indeed I don't wanna miss out on this feeling it brings
Why i chose you for it, i can't explain
but am sure if you are on the other end it won't fail
There's more to it than how we seeing it prevail
It sounds ordinary-not really something new
And I never thought it would blow up to this too
Oozing pleasure and delight,this love is so true

It's a lie if  i don't enjoy our little world
Where days are longer as the nights are
And every minute that passes
In my heart you pump much warm feelings and an inner glow of satisfaction
If i hit on another chic I might bruise you
         For love this smooth
         flowing like air between lips when you whistle
         Am being cautious not to ruin us with doubt,that's true
         I hold you like I would a one day old chick in my hand
         no pressure,no loose ends coz if I do it you might crack
honey...in your mind you will easily forget me
Set me in your heart,for it will always remember to keep me alive
I hold you very firmly like a rope am holding on
like you are the final source of my dependance I got
Fighting so hard that realness never runs short of us
And even if it does

Our already existing love be the final driver
The drive that will push us through this tilted world
Giving us reason to smile every morning we wake up
And I wish you think about me the way I do about you
Drawing imaginations,I plused your plans too
I hope I catalyse the
And be there when you realise them full
I would have gone on explaining this world in quotations
to tell you what you mean to me in this world with you
But leave that,we'll do it accompanied by love tunes
For I know you will let me have the last dance with you


MSegannI        

THIS TIME ROUND

The wait was long and now I got my answers with me
You know how to choose your words and make me believe
That even with the current situation still
We can do this and I gave you another try with it
Now I got all that well figured out
no more playing with how I feel,about
Thinking ta a small mind that you can manipulate around
And drive ma back into thinking we are still one
I would wish I could come back again this time
So you are wearing that face to switch on my blind
Then I will eventually walk back into your arms
But you can have it from me,Not this time round
Not again to pour my feelings eor you and you take me for granted
And you pretend you love me and in your life am unwanted
You never run out of lies tha you will tell me
But I promise I won't believe any
Change your tone the way you always do it
Whisper the things you think will have me back in
And I assure you all those will sound like nothing
Because this time round you won't be any convincing
Go on and say that am 'hard-hearted'
I won't even allows us to be atleast friends
This time round you lost me,and am even
Nothing in this world will change my decision and thinking
For i got my answers right with me
And this time round am walking away and won't turn back
You can plead all you want but you won't please my heart
When you had it,you put it for the 'next time'
And this time round,you are not having any 'next time'



MSeganni.

CRUSH FULL OF LUST

That brown skin,smooth and flawless like a crisp thousand banknote

Silk dress caressing your lanky body and sliding on your shapy hips as you walk

Oozing glamour like a superstar making all heads turn as you strut down the road..

You're not an angel

And if they were there on this damn world then you were the first I saw

I couldn't resist your pillowy-filled breasts confined securely in your lacy bra

Your full lips unleashing a delicate smile that looks like it would break if you are slapped

Of course not with a hand...pictured them giving a head to a brother

Those bedroom eyes hidden from the glances you were giving us by black stunnerz

Stunners that fitted prim on your round face complimented by long flowy hair

I just wished I would grab that pony tail and lay a passionate kiss on you right there

Your high heels flatter your height and I want to walk you home then accompany you to your place after the one night stand

You don't like that?

Then am sorry...and your legs are damn too gorgeous I can't help fantasizing them in the air

And you filling the room with screams as if you are a cheerleader and queen of the prom all together

Don't worry about my forgetfullness lady,I will make sure you don't leave your lingerie on my bathroom sink

And if you miss your monthly just put it in your head you never met me

Huh! I don't even know your name and you gon claim am your baby daddy?

That is hitting me below the belt and you violating the terms and conditions of this business

I need to get control of this lust in me to avoid being the dad to all you foetuses in paperbags thrown on the city streets

I am going to need to zip up..as long as you sexy chicks don't walk infront of me

Mseganni.

THOUGHTS OF VENGEANCE

Things are being more hectic and complicated in this damn life
Nothing seems to be dependant on and we are better with what we have
Just because of greed you even rob us our loved ones
You assassinate them to gain control and power
Don't you feel even a little piece of pity man?
don't you even feel the pain as we cry?


You don't even want to know how we will survive
What they meant to us,to you it doesn't matter
Is this what they say "paying the price?"
And you taking the fee to boost your pride?
Damn!! Don't you even feel guilty of that laugh you're making
tapping your back and saying you made it!

Whenever I hear the name 'brute' I think of you
I can't do anything,that's what you keep telling to you
Revenge is not easy I know that too
But wait and see how I will deal with you
Let my time taking create a master revenge you can't undo
Live that life you wanted for the moment but know this dude
What goes around comes around and you're about to get into my shoe

Do you know what the gap you caused in our lives has made us to be?
Well, you don't care and actually not even a bit
And you don't even want to hear about it
That's good for you and I must admit you sound real
Oh! Sorry...that's an echo overshadowing your guilt!
You know we are about to expose your shit

So you locked me up in this dungeon
You want me to suffer and wallow
why don't you just kill me like you did the others?
And let me go join them wherever they are?
You can torture my body but not my thoughts
And what I am thinking is what you   never know




I don't know how to finish you vagabond
I don,t know if you will feel my pain if I hang you on a rope
Or poisoning,bitter and slow
No! I want it slower so that you feel it all
I think i might find that by forcing toxic gas up your nose
Or save myself work and just slit your throat

I got another way to do away with you boss
Suffocate your lungs with a wet pillow
I press it hard on your face till you are no more
I think that is what I might go for
Be prepared for any of my vengeance thoughts



Mseganni.

THE HARD WAY

Honey we should have thought over this before we jumped in.
We should have thought about the consequences of realising our incompatibility.
Now I got you messed up emotionally.
And the way you put itI think you might do something stupid.
I really wanted this to happen between the two of us.
I oftenly thought how we are going to make it no matter what.
And even when we made those goddamn promises..
I always felt like between us,something great is going to happen.
And how things made our minds soggy with pleasure that we couldn't think..
The rising heat of reality melted the dew covering our shortlived bliss.

What we thought was heaven is proving to be upside down and that is hell.

How we got to this state is what I can't tell.
The writing is all over the wall motherfucker!!.
Me and you share very little in common and you now know that!
Suggesting we talk things over won't help anything.
For like the day before we shall end up quarelling.
And you will walk out on me,flash your middle finger and slam the door again.
I think our time is up,get your act together and move on.
My life is really too shortFor me to sit here and live telling you lies and you respond.
Yeah! I think we just had that as a lesson.

And if you are a good student then that shouldn't be taught to you again.
But I doubt if you don't go down that lane again.
I wish we never jumped into this in the first place.
I've learnt my lesson and so sure it came the hard way.

Mseganni.

It's hard to save me from my skin,and save me from this dump am in
If only I knew what you think of me,and what you would do if this wasn't real
Is it that I forget this quick

THE LOVE CYCLE

This is not a poem. This is my very honest opinion. This is what I know about love. Love is a decision. That thing you decide to do for the gain of the other. For the good and well being of that who you are attached.
Think about your mother. She bagged you for nine months . And if she didn't decide to do that,then she would have flashed you. She decided to have you because she loved what she had in her. She wanted it to have a life,gain and seize what it offers. And it's because she already knows what life offers so she brings you in it that you may enjoy it. She loved you even before she saw you . Now that's love from your mama.
Then after she decided to drop you onto this world,your dad takes over. But before he does that,he has to make decisions too. If it isn't for love,he could have decided otherwise. But he decided to take you in and cater for. Knowing that this life and all the good in it you must enjoy. He allows you to it by making a decision,out of love,to cater for you till you stand on your own. In between,they make decisions for you because they know what is good for you and want you to grab it. But mostly,we miss out this part.
When you grow outta your skin,then you want another personality in your life. So you get a lover. You take them in and accept them because you liked them and now you love them. You made all this decisions because you love them. You wanted to make them happy in any way you can. When you love them,even when temptations befall you,your decisions influence your actions. You won't cheat on them when someone tries to get you from them. Why?? Because love is a decision. And you decide to stay true to your lover because you love them. You don't have them to dog you around because they are aware you will make the right decisions for their sake. And then you marry each other,and the cycle starts again.

I would go on but that is enough for now.

Mseganni.

WASH AWAY

Many things slap your face
you roll and wander in craze
looking for a spot to relax and rest
and let your pain be washed away

The atmosphere is tense and gloom
You curse for something you did do
Then things go against your expectations
Nothing left to wash away your unrest

Everything shifts from positive to negative
You feel like you are set on the death brink
Nothing is moving as you thought or as it seemed
Your doubts too don't want to be washed away in this

The state of mind is full of melancholy
You cry in pain when you try to reminisce
The fun times are a point for your tears
And nothing to wash this away wants to appear

Even the dearest of them all who had you
And you had them before they left too
Leaving you without even making an excuse
Nothing to wash away this state to a conclude

Met sadness face to face and said 'hi'
It gave me a hug and to happiness I said 'bye'
Now I ran away from it to survive
And now I'm washed away to here to hide

I AM THE LONE POET

I am the lone poet
a state of my mind
when
am angry or depressed
when
am sad with even myself
when
am having no one to tell
tell everything that I feel


What would you do when the people you love don't love you back?


Or you admire somebody so much that you would do anything for them?


But they don't even care...

What if you knew what people thought about you without them telling you?


Join me here,I am the lone poet.

I write what I know and I think about,you read and teach me what I don't know.


Msegann.