I start thinking again

The saw moves back and forth,
The show still lingers in my thoughts,
If I let her go I loose a gem,
If I let her stay then things wouldn't be the same,
When I think about it,
At times I smile at what I did,
I know mine is a noble course,
A sincere heart in search of comfort,
When I speak of love,
At times I miss my statements,
Then am filled with fear for dejectment,
If she loves me then,
Thats what I was wishing,
Whether its true or a pretence,
I know life's lessons are full of quizzes,
At times I pass them
And others I fail
Let me fold my fingers..
I hope this sawing will save my day,
And keep me sawing back and forth
To forget my thoughts
Just for a moment
Then start again when the wood is cut into two pieces.